What’s this weird feelings iam going through today? Aw! So uncomfortable. Something isnt right. Actually MANY things aint right .
1) Iam torn between which career iam going to :(, maths or science ? Banker or doctor/dentist? I can’t decide because i dont really have a passion for ANYthing, really . And iam just average in doing things… Not exceptionally good in anything! So i just dont really know what I’d be good at and excel in that area.
To me , having a job is to repay my parents .. Giving them a better life than now . And yess , make them really proud .
2. I dont know how to handle people’s feelings towards me . Especially guys . Iam really scared when guys start being extra nice and become cautious of them . *goose bumps* . Something like this happened today:/ making me feel not at ease
I like things at platonic levels with guys . Since i cant handle these feelings , that’s why iam forever alone .
3) i miss my bestie of the besties alot :( that girl . Shes like a soulmate to me. :( shes the only one that can understand me mostttt . One day i will see you lovely :(
Kays , that should be it . Its good Scribbling down my feelings here . I feel safe and better . :)
Well i have to figure out my furture path soon! Yeap
PS : i might be taking up nails lessons and start working for manicures shop :D eggggcited! It sounds fun!!! Hehe
“If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete.”—
Remember this today. It’s especially important for those of us in a flare. Don’t insult your body. Treat yourself with kindness. Talk to yourself with kindness. Stop calling yourself names because you have moon face or the extra 10 prednisone pounds; they are not forever. If you need to rest, rest. If you need pain meds to make it through your day, it’s okay; stop fighting it. It’s okay if you can’t get off the couch.
It’s okay if you could only manage a short walk around the block instead of a jog. It’s okay if you couldn’t get out and exercise today. It’s okay if you couldn’t eat solid foods today. It’s okay if the only thing you could do was breathe.
You’re not lazy. You’re not a lost cause. You’re not useless. You’re in a flare. There will be days kinder than this one.
““If possible, I try not to think about how hard things are. Because the more you think about how hard things are, things get more harder. When difficult times find me, I try to get healing by eating tasty foods and listening to good music.” January 2013, Star1 Magazine”—(via allaboutseunggi)